3 years ago I thought I was at the end, the doctors pronouncement that I had Cancer (like I am sure to many others) was a death sentence.
When in fact my death sentence had been diagnosed many years earlier when I stopped growing, stopped learning and most of all stopped feeling.
On this New Years Eve in Australia I celebrate now differently than I ever have before, I find joy in the smallest of things, and the feeling of tears enveloping me is welcome.
I still struggle, I still fight off the demons of judgement and anger and I recognize in me the evil as well as the good. But now the difference is I see it and with that I have desire to change and to possibly become the man I hope to be.
I am not drafting New Years resolutions this year, instead I am setting internal goals that will challenge me. The goal this year is not what I can acquire but what I can give, what changes can I affect that may in some small part change the world around me.
I am starting by continuing to “Change Myself”, because this is the only person I can change.
I am “Taking Care of the Moment” I am in, not living behind me or in front of me.
I am now looking at the “Best of People” instead of looking for ways to see the worst of them.
I am being aware that “I Need to Learn”, to never stop, to never feel I know it all.
And finally to “Persist”, to never give up regardless of the odds.
I leave 2014 with sadness as it has been a year unlike another I have lived, but I also look forward to 2015 as new opportunities are only as far away as my own imagination and desire.
I close with this quote from Winston Churchill that resonates inside me.
“History will be kind to me for I intend to write it.”
Happy New Year all, I hope you fulfill your dreams this coming year.
